Reflections_

Sometimes when i just sit down and reflect on my past and the incidents that took place, i will unknowingly think of u. Ill start to ponder...

Can i really tell myself that I no longer hate u...? Its been so long, almost reaching a yr, but can i really face u, if i bump into u in the streets one day.? I gave myself a few seconds to picture that scenerio. I cant imagine how would it be... Cos i probably wont even wana see u ever again...I wish u could just disappear from my life, like ive never met u before...

At this instant...it seems as if i could feel the scar u left behind in my heart. Do u have any idea how much agony U have brought to my life...? the aftereffects that u have inflicted on me...the fear of loving...the fear of giving...the fear of stepping forward to someone right there in front of me all prepared to receive me with a hug, all prepared to shower me with all his love and care.. THis thing that pulls me back is all BCOS of U... do i have no reasons to hate u..?! I Have all the reasons to list to hate u for everything u have done...
As much as i Wish i could just hate u with all my heart and soul... but i always fail to do so...cos its just too tired to hate someone and hate someone whom u had loved so much...it would be just too tired...

The things happening around me, the reality of life...the ever changing world and the hypocrisy of mankind, the cruelty of people who cant wait to see each other "dead".. How ugly can human get...? All these disheartening incidents happening around, is more than enough to make me just too tired of bothering about anything, or to hate anyone... All that I reallY need is just roam for some fresh air to breathe and left alone from all the UgLy Sights in Life....

i wont wana Hate u, just dont ever appear in my life again....cos I never ever wana hear you say again, "I'll Never Break Your Heart".