_drunKards speAk the truth_

(22-01-05)
Im filled with guilt...
i really never meant to hurt him
i never knew he was this serious...
til last night....

RuiJ a name i prefer to call...
a cute looking guy who is also my classmate's ex bf.
We know of each others presence in the school,
but officially got to know each other and went out on(26 Dec 04).
I have to admit that he has been very nice to me all these while...
He never fails to give in to me everytime... I throw my tantrums...or say things that hurt. I know it does... but he has never get pissed off or show any anger on me... sometimes i just like to make pple angry...but he just appeared to be fine with everything...

I haven't been really take him seriously... cos my impression of him since long time ago is a playboy... no idea why either, could be the way he portray himself... So, i didnt put in much of feelings... to me im juz playing along... didnt think much of the other party. All these while, he has been giving most of the time... Giving love, care and concern... He has been telling me that he was serious; cos i tend to joke around saying that he is into flings and stuff... though i somehow know he is trying very hard to make me believe him... I know he meant it, cos i can feel it... but i just took it like as if it as a joke from him...

Sometimes i really wonder if there is some problem with me...he is so nice to me but yet sometimes i can be so cold and mean to him.... I thought he could takit...cos he seems to be strong, with his cool looking face...I thought I was right. Until he called me when he was drunk... I certainly hope it isn't something to gain my attention. But whatever the case is, everything he said when he was "drunk" made me feel so very bad about my attitude towards him in the past... i never knew that my words would have such an impact on him...
until.... drunkards speak the truth.